Listening to My Body

On July 4th, 2017, I awoke with severe back pain. My wife suggested that it may be kidney related and urged me to drink lots of water. I did, but the pain was even worse the next day. A visit to my doctor took kidneys off the list, but an X-Ray yielded a diagnosis of “diffuse idiopathic skeletal hyperostosis” (DISH) for short which is a strange form of osteoarthritis.

So my doctor came up with a diagnosis, but I looked deeper. I have been feeling huge stress as I try to get people to make a commitment to take my ConneXions Intensive workshop on the weekend of July 21-23. That date is less than two weeks away, and I only have three people registered. Translation: I wanted people to give up a precious weekend in the middle of Summer, and they were giving me a resounding “No way!”

Add to that the fact that all of the content is undergoing a complete overhaul and my stress level was starting to peak.

Several times in my past, my body has tried to send me a message that my head didn’t want to hear. The first time this happened was when I was a beginning programmer in 1967. I was writing my first computer program, but the key-punched data was all wrong and I couldn’t get my program to work. After several weeks of trying to take garbage in and produce meaningful output, I came down with a severe fever and body aches that landed me in the hospital. Blood tests revealed nothing so they released me the next day. I returned to work, picked up my program listing and within 30 minutes, my body was in complete revolt… again.

50 years later, my body was in revolt again. This time, I listened. I talked with my wife and with several members of my team and decided to move the class date to September 9th and take the rest of July and all of August to do recruiting and finish the content.

Now, on Friday, my back pain is almost gone and I feel a huge sense of relief. I have time now to finish the content, build my team and (this is the big one!) connect more deeply with my wife of 42 years.

The moral of this story is simple. Truth lies in my body, not in my head.

Bob Jones

I am a recovering engineer, a programmer for over 50 years. A decade or so ago, I discovered that I also have a heart. I have spent most of the last 15 years learning how to move from head to heart and back, as the situation requires. I created this website and the ConneXions Workshop.

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